Saturday, April 18, 2009

and I'm feeling fine...

It's funny... again writing late night on a Saturday night.

So today was a mix of up and downs, actually this week all together has been rather challenging, but I still was able to get up every day and get through it. It's funny, as hard as this week was, it also included so amazing memories.

Funny how that happens... again, the really good, and the really bad.  So I was told on Wednesday that my job was ending today, Friday. It wasn't a surprise, I just felt fortunate to even have had the experience to begin with, so it's okay.  I had a great time working there, but all good things must come to and end and it is time for me to move on to something else, whether I like it or not. This is what is meant to happen.

I went out tonight with a couple of new friends, Tony and Jake in West Hollywood to a bar, Fiesta Cantina. Delicious Margaritas, and a really fun crowd, mostly gay males.  Going into this I felt nervous, as I have not walked in to a situation like this by myself in my life,  but was excited to see where the night could take me. Men are gorgeous. This whole night made me realize so much about the opposite sex, and gay men. I had so much fun with these 2 men who have been together for 11 years, and got married in the "window" in Cali where gays were able to marry. I want to say it's an amazing thing that are married, but it shouldn't be, they deserve it .  I'm just very sad that all gay couples do not have the same privileges. Rrrrr.... 

Sexuality is funny... I felt closer with these men than I have with many of the woman who I have met in LA. It was funny to me, talking and meshing... it was so much fun, and I felt so unusually comfortable, and confident... and then...

These people showed up RIGHT next to us (on the sidewalk), like 14 of them with a Boom Box BUSTED out in a CRAZY dance routine... to some hysterical song.  I was DYING... absolutely one of the coolest things I have seen in my life. CRAZY costumes and talent, and so unexpected... :)

Balance is so interesting... as much fun as we were having, everyone, individually is living through their own hardships, and it came out so vividly in conversation.  Most including family, which was equally as important to each of us. So scary. So sad... I wish nothing but positive things for their them and their loved ones. 

I went to Britney Spears in concert last night, again me up with Tony and Jake for a drink before, LOVE THEM!  The concert was "amaze-balls!" and I took lots of fun pics... coming soon.

Nuff said... Didn't make enough sense.


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